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Different forms of love can be observed throughout William Shakespeare’s Hamlet. Two primary relationships described include the loves between Hamlet and Ophelia and Claudius and Gertrude. However, the one potential connection that is rarely recognized occurs between Hamlet and his mother Gertrude. Hamlet, though attempting to love Ophelia, possesses an Oedipus complex in connection to Gertrude, strengthened by his father’s demise and the replacement of Claudius, creating his hatred for Claudius. Hamlet appears angry at most surrounding people out of frustration for his unrequited love for his mother in combination with the jealousy and intolerance of his sly, sneaky, incestuous uncle. Hamlet’s love for his mother, known psychologically as an Oedipus complex, and defined as, delves further as time progresses. The farther away the death of Hamlet’s father and Gertrude’s former husband King Hamlet moves, the less guilty Hamlet feels about this romantic passion and the more it is emphasized. However, this love is not shown chiefly through intimate moments or sweet actions; instead, his love and frustration is demonstrated through anger directed towards Gertrude, reprimanding her and hurting her to attempt to make her realize her mistake of entwining in a marriage with Claudius based solely upon lust and power. One soliloquy given from Hamlet to Gertrude includes the statements “O shame, where is thy blush? Rebellious hell,/If thou canst mutine in a matron’s bones,/To flaming youth let virtue be as wax/And melt in her own fire. Proclaim no shame/When the compulsive ardour gives the change,/Since frost itself as actively doth burn,/And reason panders will.” (Shakespeare, 145) This selection indicates Hamlet’s disgust for her childlike lust for Claudius and asks how it is expected for a young person to control their lust when an adult is incapable of the same action. Hamlet is the young person he is referring to, with the lust for his mother unable to be controlled. It is simple for Hamlet to love an older woman when the woman is acting young on her own accord. In addition to that, Hamlet also discourages his mother’s marriage by saying the marriage between her and Claudius is “Such an act/That blurs the grace and blush of modesty,/Calls virtue hypocrite, takes off the rose/From the fair forehead of an innocent love/And sets a blister there, makes marriage vows/As false as a dicers’ oaths. Oh such a deed/As from the body of contraction plucks/The very soul, and sweet religion makes/A rhapsody of words.” (Shakespeare, 143) Basically, Hamlet tells Gertrude that her marriage was an abomination to religion and has given a bad name to the sacrament of marriage. In speaking to Gertrude in this manner, Hamlet is displaying his love for her through his jealousy of Gertrude and Claudius’s lustful union. Hamlet attempts to convince his mother not to sleep with Claudius in the selection, “Good night – but go not to my uncle’s bed;/Assume a virtue if you have it not./That monster custom, who all sense doth eat,/Of habits devil, is angel yet in this,/That to the use of actions fair and good/He likewise gives a frock or livery/That aptly is put on. Refrain tonight,/And that shall lend a kind of easiness/To the next abstinence, the next more easy,/For use almost can change the stamp of nature/And either…the devil, or throw him out,/With wonderful potency.” (Shakespeare, 151) He displays quite vividly his jealousy and love for his mother, begging his mother to be abstinent and detached from Claudius in order to draw herself away from him. Hamlet despises seeing the woman he is in love with in connection with the man whom he detests. The relationship Gertrude has with Claudius causes Hamlet to hate Claudius with a burning passion. Hamlet makes an insulting statement that attacks Claudius’s sexuality, demonstrating his sexual jealousy and inadequacy towards Claudius; “My mother. Father and mother is man and wife, man and wife is one flesh, and so, my mother. Come, for England.” (Shakespeare, 165) This describes a taunting play on Claudius where Hamlet calls Claudius his mother because of the sexual bond between Claudius and Gertrude. The statement reinstates Hamlet’s obsession with his mother’s sexuality and cruelly emphasizes his passion towards her if read in a snide tone. Although Hamlet’s main reasons for hating Claudius lie in the murder of King Hamlet and Claudius’s returned hatred for him, Hamlet is more concerned with the immodest way in which Claudius uses his mother purely for control over Denmark and then attempts to make it seem like he truly loves her. For example, Claudius feigns true love for his Queen and uses that love as an excuse for his inability to kill Hamlet by saying, “The queen his mother/Lives almost by his looks, and for myself,/My virtue or my plague, be it either which,/She’s so conjunctive to my life and soul,/That as the star moves not but in his sphere,/I could not but buy her.” (Shakespeare, 187) Claudius says this to Laertes in an attempt to show his power and control, which he lacks in his inability to kill Hamlet before Hamlet attempts to kill him, in addition to trying to convince the general public that Claudius did not only marry Gertrude to steal away the throne from Hamlet. Overall, however, the hatred between Claudius and Hamlet over Gertrude comes to terms in the end of the drama, when Hamlet murders Claudius. Hamlet is no longer killing his uncle for the sake and revenge of his dead father, but instead for the death of his newly dead mother whom Claudius accidently killed in an attempt to murder Hamlet. It is possible that there were more feelings about Hamlet from Gertrude, considering that he is the last one that she calls for when she is dying, saying as she dies, “No, no, the drink, the drink – O my dear Hamlet -/The drink, the drink – I am poisoned.” (Shakespeare, 233) He responds in outrage after Laertes confesses the plot of the king in his dying words by saying, “Thy mother’s poisoned -/I can no more – the king, the king’s to blame.” (Shakespeare, 233) Hamlet stabs Claudius, injuring him, and then forcing his to continue to drink the remainder of his mother’s poison, saying, “Here, thou incestuous, murderous, damned Dane,/Drink off this poison. Is thy union here?/Follow my mother.” (Shakespeare, 235) Here, Hamlet mocks the union of their marriage in depression, forcing Claudius to stay with his mother in death as well. Although Claudius’s murder of his wife was unintentional, Hamlet still took more offense to the act because it was committed by the man who had stolen everything from him, and now killed the woman he loved. Hamlet’s relationship with Ophelia can never be taken seriously because of his feelings for his mother. He feigns love for Ophelia out of necessity just as Claudius feigns love for Gertrude. It would seem that Hamlet is trying to hide or dismantle his feelings towards Gertrude by trying to love someone else instead. The only time Hamlet truly claims to love Ophelia when asked by his mother after Ophelia’s death. He would never express his love for his mother so openly, so when put on the spot, Hamlet does what is expected and confesses his former love for Ophelia; “I loved Ophelia; forty thousand brothers/Could not with all their quantity of love/Make up my sum.” It is understandable to believe that Hamlet did care affectionately for Ophelia before his father passed away; there is a letter read aloud by Polonius from Hamlet to Ophelia proving that there once was a passion between them. However, following the death of King Hamlet, their love becomes harder to believe seeing as that is when his true passion for his mother begins to unfold. Hamlet constantly questions his love for Ophelia. He confesses that he no longer loves her in the passage, “Ay truly, for the power of beauty will sooner transform honesty from what it is to a bawd, than the force of honesty can translate beauty into his likeness. This was sometime a paradox, but now the time gives it proof. I did love you once.” (Shakespeare, 107) When Ophelia responds by saying that she did believe he loved her at some point, Hamlet takes his rejecting of Ophelia a step farther by saying, “You should not have believed me, for virtue cannot so inoculate our old stock but we shall relish of it. I loved you not.” (Shakespeare, 107) He is completely disrespectful to her and inconsiderate of her feelings, but is unable to help the fact that he no longer, nor supposedly ever did, love her. Claudius also doubts Hamlet’s feelings for Ophelia, saying “Love? His affections do not that way tend…There’s something in his soul/O’er which his melancholy sits on brood,/And I do doubt the hatch and the disclose/Will be some danger.”(Shakespeare, 109) He is harsh and unable to love Ophelia, seeing as he is already madly in love with his mother and cannot carry on with a relationship which means nothing to him. Because the love from his mother is not returned, he feels a strong dislike towards all women, especially represented in the statement, “Or if thou wilt needs marry, marry a fool, for wise men know well enough what monsters you make of them. To a nunnery go, and quickly too.” (Shakespeare, 109) His play on sexual innuendo with Ophelia only emphasizes her lack of value to him, specifically when he includes the more bitter, stinging innuendo, saying, “I could interpret between you and your love if I could see the puppets dallying…It would cost you a groan to take off mine edge…So you mistake your husbands.” (Shakespeare, 125) He speaks poorly of women in general as he tries to control Ophelia sexually. All Ophelia ever did was attempt to love Hamlet and keep him safe, while he is instead commenting on his mother’s smiling face, obviously more focused on his mother than he is on Ophelia. One Ophelia has her first scene of madness, she demonstrates in a song the ways that Hamlet used her, despite the fact that he did not love her. The lyrics read, “By Gis and by Saint Charity,/Alack and fie for shame,/Young men will do’t if they come to’t-/By Cock, they are to blame./Quote she, ‘Before you tumbled me,/You promised me to wed.’/He answers-/So would I ha’ done, by yonder sun,/And thou hadst not come to my bed.” (Shakespeare, 175) The song indicates Hamlet’s feelings towards her in the regard that she lost her virginity to him even though there was no clear intention of them ever getting married. Now, however, he no longer has any desire to marry Ophelia, seemingly because she had lost her virginity to him before they had gotten married. He didn’t want her for anything more because that was the one sure thing that Hamlet could never receive from his mother. Although many people stood in his way, killing Claudius made Hamlet able to show his true affection for his mother before he died in the ultimate way: by avenging her death. Despite his hatred for women, Hamlet is able to display his love regularly throughout the drama, although majority of the time he is hurting someone else in the process. Falling out of love with Ophelia was his easiest challenge, although the most confusing one to deal with. Attempting to put his sexual feelings for his mother at bay, he instead brings them out towards Ophelia, making her nothing more than a side pleasure. Hamlet’s love for his mother is in a category of its own: strong, passionate, and seemingly unrequited. It is definitely not questionable that Hamlet could never love another woman more than he loved his own mother; seeing as he died with her, now he’ll never have to. |
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So, today was completely uneventful. I was kind of annoyed that Marz had something she was up to and couldn't tell me what, But whatever. Her business, not mine. Plus, apparently I didn't miss anything by not going to community days. Word says it sucks this year. Oh well. Maybe next year. Hopefully the parade will be back. Either way, today I really did nothing. Anyway, I still have to report on Brandon, so I'm guessing this would be the ideal time. Brandon Michael Nowlin. I was introduced to him by my cousin Claudia, back in early July, Downside to all this - This boy of mine happens to be in San Antonio, Texas. I miss him. =[ |
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THE 5000 QUESTION SURVEY Version 2.0 -- 1. Who are you? Clair Elise Belmonte. Also known as “That one girl…” 2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you? –People who are loud and obnoxious all the time drive me crazy. -I’m horrible at taking compliments. -I’m disgustingly shy around people I don’t know. 3. Who did you take this survey from (the entire survey is available here: http://www.myspace.com/5000_question_sur When you aren't filling out 5000 question surveys, what are you doing? Dancing, mostly. That’s pretty much it. 4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time). This year or last year? [This year] Dance, Chorus, Italian, World Religions, Christian Scriptures, US History, Chem, English, Geometry, Computer Apps, Keyboarding, PE2. [Last year] Italian, Algebra 2, World History, Hebrew Scriptures, Chorus, Catholic Christianity, English, Theatre Stagecraft, PE, Biology, Freshman Sem. 5. What is your biggest goal for this year? To get good enough grades to stay in IB? 6. Where do you want to be in 5 years? Dancing with a ballet company in Boston. 7. What stage of life are you in right now? That icky, twisted, hormonal teen stage. 8. Are you more child-like or childish? Child-like, in the ways of what makes me smile and such. 9. What is the last thing you said out loud? “Why do I careeee?” in response to my little cousin Andrew letting me know that the lawn people are here. 10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now? Just Can’t Get Enough – Depeche Mode. 11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes? Nope. Never. I wanted to when I was a kid though. 12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same? It tends to fluctuate from one extreme to another. 13. Does time really heal all wounds? No. That’s proven to be false. 14. How do you handle a rainy day? By running outside, dancing and making the best of this blessing from God. 15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights? Losing your luggage. I’d rather buy new lights altogether though. 16. How is your relationship with your parents? With my mother, a relationship is nonexistent and I plan to keep it that way. My father is the main person in my life; he’s the most amazing person I know. Will you miss them when they are gone? My dad, oh, with everything in me. I could live without the nagging bitch. 17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? Very vaguely. 18. What is the truest thing that you know? Life goes on. You shouldn’t worry about stuff that doesn’t matter. 19. What did you want to be when you grew up? A ballerina. Always. 20. Have you ever been given a second chance? I’ve been given so many chances. God bless the people who give second chances. People need them. 21. Are you more of a giver or a taker? Giver. I’d give everything to make someone I care about happy. 22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind? I try to the best of my ability. 23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you? Heartbreak. 24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you? Heartbreak. 25. Who have you hugged today? Daddy, Andrew, Nonna. Going to hug Marz and Ria soon enough. 26. Who has done something today to show they care about you? Daddy. Nonna. 27. Do you have a lot to learn? I have everything to learn. 28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be? A Perfect all ballet technique. B Trigger loving responses in other people. C Read minds. 29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel? How people make me feel. That stays. 30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship? Trust, Understanding, Common Goals, and Open Conversation between both parties. 31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die? A Raise well rounded children. B Live in a foreign country. C Determine what true love really feels like… 32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing? A Any major public speaking. B Get married to someone I don’t love. C Fail anything in school. 33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause? Curing autism. 34. What does each decade make you think of: The 19.. 20's: Flappers. The movie “Chicago” and all that jazz. 30's: Big band music. Was that in the thirties? 40's: World War II 50's: “Leave It To Beaver” like mothers. 60's: Flower power and smoking pot. 70's: Disco. Duh. Anything sparkley. 80's: Weird clothing. Madonna and Devo. Fabulous one hit wonder era. 90's: Uhm, my entire childhood? The greatest/most pointless decade of them all?! Yeah, we had the internet and caller ID. We had a better childhood than all of you. 2000 (so far): Effin waste of time. Should go back to the nineties. 2010's: More technological bull than we have now. 35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why? 90’s. Those are my years, yo. 36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song? Oldies and Classic Rock are two different things. The greatest song of all time, which will live on forever. Freebird. 37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country? America. Damn you, Bush. If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be? “Get the potatoes out of your brain and resign. If you care so much about the damn country, you wouldn’t make us deal with you for another miserable year.” 38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night? USA, 31. There’s always either some law show or a classic 80’s movie on. What’s better than that? 39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why? Gaston. The biggest jerk you know. 40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout? Mmmhm. I was a junior back when I quit in… 5th grade. 41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat? Flying. It would get me there faster. 42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night? The sun reflects off the moisture in the atmosphere to the sky, making the sky appear blue. At night, the sun is down and there is nothing to provide the light necessary for reflection. 43. What does your name mean? Clear and Bright. My full name means “clear, beautiful mountain.” And no, my parents were not hippies. 44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space? The ocean. There’s so much more interesting stuff down there. 45. Word association What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word: Air: Filter. Wow, I’m a loser. Meat: Vegetarian. Hah. Different: Same. I think opposites, apparently. Pink: Ew. Girly. Deserve: Me? Hahah. Wow, who’s conceited? White: Black. Market. What a good store. Elvis: Presley. The King. Damn right. Magic: School Bus. What the hell?! Heart: The 80s band. Yum. Clash: Another band. One I’m not specifically fond of. Pulp: Fiction. Good movie. 46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be? Frank Sinatra. He’s amazing. 47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive? Mikhail Baryshnikov. 48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday? The Breakfast Club. 49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do? Do they have outlets in elevators? Probably not. I would bring my cell, but that’s too typical, and it’s a razr, so it would die pretty damn fast. Uhm, cards. I can play cards for hours. 50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved? Not that I recall, no. 51. Make up a definition for the following silly words... Fruitgoogle: the look you possess when looking at a piece of fruit you cannot eat. This efficiently describes the look Eve possessed for the Forbidden Fruit back in the Garden of Eden in biblical times. Ambytime: an energy drink used to turn back time and make the time you previously wasted significantly more productive. Armcactus: A spiked sleeve for the arm that is meant to be held up in front of your torso to protect yourself from a blow to the chest in a fight. 52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands? I have no clue. Something not too good looking, I’m sure. 53. What was your favorite toy as a child? Barbies, of course. 54. How many TV’s are in your house? Dads – three. Moms – four. 55. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Roll down hills. Who doesn’t love to do that? 56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow? Pretty. Witty. Gay. Ahaha. Well, no, I’m really indifferent. 57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? Most of my dreams are too unrealistic. 58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader? No, but I really want to. 59. What is your idea of paradise? A big dance studio in the sky. With lots of bookcases and comfy chairs too. 60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like? God is the only reason I’m here. He is astounding; un-human, yet remarkably able to understand human concepts of life. He is my protector and my father. I love Him. 61. Do you believe in Hell? If there is a place of pure bliss, there must be one of pure evil. 62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't? Hah. Trained a llama. 63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done? I’m not sure. I don’t do many kind things, I don’t think. 64. Are you a patient person? With people I love, I try to be. Naturally, I’m not. 65. What holiday should exist but doesn't? I think we should have a holiday to recognize 9/11. Not just because of another day off; because it’s important to remember. 66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does? Labor Day. What is the point of that?! 67. What's the best joke you ever heard? I love the political jokes of Sarah. 68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been? Mmmm, I have no idea. I can’t even think of a remotely fun place. 69. Is your hair natural or dyed? It quickly went from highlighting to dying. It’s getting blonder and blonder every time I go. 70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front? I’m pretty much front and center about everything. If it’s a secret, I forget it. 71. What is under your bed right now? Nothing. There’s the surprise of the century. 72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home? Go home. I couldn’t deal with that many singing munchkins. 73. If you drive do you frequently speed? I don’t drive, but I wouldn’t speed either. Eeesh. 74. What is the world's best song to dance to? The Cha Cha slide. No one could POSSIBLY mess it up. 75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone? Technically, a swing version of “Let It Snow.” Last week with Josh. 76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? Oooh. Ouch. Warner Brothers, probably. 77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo? Snow leopards or giraffes. 78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic? Not particularly. We’ll see what happens when I’m paired with the right person though. 79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off? Fly? Float is more like it. 80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it? Dance in a big company. 81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick? Whatever right or freedom allows you to marry. I personally wouldn’t miss it much. 82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole? North Pole, definitely. Colllllllld. =] 83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television? Television. Who needs it anyway? 84. What do you think makes someone a hero? They have admirable qualities, such as responsibility, respect, trustworthiness, etc. They are someone to look up to. 85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in? Honestly? Totally Spies. =P I’m lame. 86. Name one thing that turns your stomach: Grades. 87. What was the last thing you paid for? White Caramel Chocolate Latte. 88. Are you a coupon clipper? I don’t think I’ve ever actually used a coupon in my life. Hmph. 89. Get anything good in the mail recently? Do schoolbooks count? 90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling? Dancing. Duh. 91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So... Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends? No. Just a clone of their former self. They clone themselves constantly enough that it seems like the same person. No one would know the difference. 92. What insects are you afraid of? Cicadas. Not afraid, really. They just disgust me. 93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say? “If Ohio is for Lovers, would I get more there?” Ahahah. I always wanted to say that to someone from Ohio. 94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn? The first thing that comes to mind is that hideous all pink outfit in 6th grade. 95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be? Blueberry muffins. 96. What are your parents interested in? Uhm, work? 97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet? Not an insect. But a frog. And a snake. Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal? Snake! =D 98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans? Wishes. 99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest? When I’m dancing, of course. 100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring? Bug spray, sleeping bag, matches. 101. What does happiness/joy feel like physically? Everything just floats. This doesn’t happen too often. 102. List five people you love starting with the one you love the absolute most. A Dave. Hah. B Daddy. C Magen. D Ria. E Marz. 103. How many movies have you gone to see this month? None, I don’t think… 104. If you could have 3 wishes...but none of them could be for yourself, what would you wish for? 1. Find the cure to autism. 2. Perfect, dream relationships for all my friends and family. 3. All my dancers make their way to professional careers. 105. In what ways do you relax and de-stress when you are really tense? Dance around in my pointe shoes. Sleep. 106. How much money would it take to get you to drive to school naked in the springtime and get out of the car? This reminds me of The Breakfast Club. Hah. Uhm… as much as I need at the time. 107. Have you ever killed an animal? Hah. Yes. I come from a family of hunters. 108. Have you ever lost someone close to you? Olga. <3 R.I.P 109. What do you think of cloning? It’s ridiculous. Just have sex and stop looking for other ways to duplicate things! 110. Do you read or watch TV more often? Read, probably. 111. With all this talk of terrorism going around are you willing to sacrifice rights and freedoms for increased safety? Not really. I think, whatever level we are at right now, is limiting us of enough freedoms for our “safety” as it is. 112. What is the punishment you would come up with for Osama Bin Laden if you caught him alive? Let him spend his life in solitude prison. Killing him wouldn’t do anything. 113. Have you ever named an individual part of your body? My boobs have been named before, but I didn’t name them myself. 114. Have you ever been on the radio or on TV? If I have, I don’t remember it. 115. Have you ever won a lottery, or sweepstakes? In second grade I won one of those things for tickets to the Rugrats Movie from Lunchables. Then last year I won FOB tickets, but gave them to Lahni & Dave. 116. Have you ever won a contest or competition? Anything competition for bobbing for apples. 117. Do you like to watch The Joy of Painting show with Bob Ross (check out this link if you don't know who he is. Also please note me if you notice the link is broken) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bob_Ross_(p 118. Do you know what your grandparents and your great grand parents did for a living? Grandparents on dads side – Salesman and Secretary. Moms- Teacher and… something mechanical. I don’t know about my great grandparents. 119. Is there anything really interesting in your family history? Mafia connections. Hell yes. 120. Is there anyone you trust completely? Dave. Ria. Marz. 121. Have you ever lost someone without having the chance to say goodbye? …yes. 122. How do you feel about women in politics? If that woman is Hillary Clinton, hell no. 123. Would you rather have an indoor Jacuzzi or an outdoor pool? Indoor Jacuzzi. 124. What things are you interested in that you study or read about on your own? Dance. Cooking. Most classic novels. 125. Would you consider yourself to be intelligent? More than most of the idiots that now ‘grace’ American streets. 126. Would you consider yourself to be wise? I’m not old enough to be wise. 127. Have you ever given or received a lap dance? Hahaha. Both. Hasn’t everyone? 128. Have you ever spoken to a homeless person? Sure. Bench Bob. Really, he was such a great man. 129. Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring? Done it, but eh. It’s dangerous. Be careful. 130. If you could add 70 years to your life but only by making some random person die 70 years sooner would you? No. I don’t want that much life. Give it to them. They can take the 70 from me. 131. Can you finish any of the following lyrics? A: Nothing to kill or die for... And no religion too. B: Late comings with the late comin' stretcher... that’s a body bag in disguise. C: I could make a film and make you my star... Don’t know that one, sorry. 132. Were you ever with someone while they died? No. 133. Would you rather be a world political leader or a rock star? Rock Star. They’re real. Political leaders are twofaced. 134. Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote? Hahaha. I think, Gianni Levato in 6th grade? 135. Have you ever sent someone a surprise though the mail? Not that I remember. 136. Are you looking forward to any concerts right now? Dave Matthews Band later this month. 137. Of all animated movies, which is the best one you've ever seen? The Incredibles is love. 138. What are the best bands or songs to listen to while driving? U2, Prince, & Michael Jackson. Duh. 139. What do you think is the most amazing thing that anyone has ever accomplished? Whoever developed chemotherapy. 140. What could a member of the opposite sex do to impress you? Actually have a brain and use it once in a while? 141. About how many emails do you get a day? 3, maybe. How many of those emails are junk mail? 2. Hahah. How many of them are forwards? None, but I consider that junk mail too. 142. What is your favorite thing to do online besides filling out surveys? Myspace/facebook. 143. Do you believe Kurt Cobain (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kurt_Cobai 144. Have you ever thought about hitchhiking across the country? NO. I’m good, thanks. 145. Who would you bring with you on this kind of a road trip? Marz, of course. 146. Of the following, which word best describes you: accurate, bold, charming, dependable – Charming. 147. If you are single, at about what age do you think you will be ready to settle down and get married? If you are married, how old were you at the time? Mid to late 20s. 148. Do you often wonder, when you say goodbye to people, if it is the last time you will ever see them? I try not to. 149. What movie are you most looking forward to seeing when it comes out? I’m not looking forward to any currently. 150. What is your quest? I seek the Holy Grail. And my favorite color is green. =P 151. What is louder and more annoying: 200 adults talking or one four-year-old screaming? That damn 4 year old. 152. Do you believe the stories about planes, boats and people mysteriously disappearing into the Bermuda triangle? Yes. What are the chances that they are all coincidences? I mean, honestly… 153. Who are you the most jealous of? No one, really. 154. What is the happiest way you can start your day? Starbucks coffee and no one home. 155. Do you ever have moments where you feel like everything is all right in the world? Hopefully, I’ll have more of them this year than last. 156. Who thinks that you are offensive? Lots of people who take things too personally. 157. If you had to teach a class in something, what would you be able to teach people? Basic ballet. Thank you, speech class. 158. Have you ever had a spiritual experience (an experience that cannot be explained by science)? Not that I’m aware of. 159. Do you believe that this experience was truly mystical or do you think there is some scientific explanation for it, only you don't know what it is? N/A. 160. Do you get offended easily? I don’t think so. 161. Would you still love and stay with your significant other if he or she had to have a breast or testicle removed? Love isn’t about outward appearances. So, sure. 162. Do you believe in fate or free will? An equal level of both? 163. Do you believe that only boring people get bored? Typically 164. Can life change or are we all stuck in vain? Life can always change. 165. What changes are you afraid of? Any kind of serious relationship. Ouch. 166. Are you a day person or nocturnal? Nocturnal, totally. 167. What one CD could you listen to for an entire week (no mixed CD’s, it must be an album)? The White Album, of course. 168. Which is worse, working in retail, food service, or an office? Oh gosh. An office. 169. What's the coolest job you ever had? I don’t work. 170. What is one central idea that your thoughts seem to come back to? Is it what I want to do, or is it the RIGHT thing to do? 171. Have you ever wanted to be an actor/tress? Not really 172. If you had the power to control one person and make this person do anything you wanted for a whole day, who would you pick and what would they do? I couldn’t handle the pressure of controlling another human being AND myself. 173. What star sign are you and what is your sign like? Virgo. We’re very logical and down to earth. We like to help people. 174. Did the Blair Witch Project scare you? A bit. That’s creepy. But I love the idea of it. 175. Are you in constant fear of death? No. 176. Does fear of death keep you from building a life? Not a chance. 177. Do you like all your movies to be in wide-screen? Nope. Full screen. 178. Are you a fan of any comic books? Johnny the Homicidal Maniac 179. At what age did you attend your first funeral? 7. 180. What do you smell like (lotion, cologne, sweat)? Spearmint shampoo. Cocoa butter elsewhere. 181. What are your greatest sources for wisdom? Experience. 182. When you were little, where did your parents tell you babies come from? Uhm… “when a man and a woman…” You get the point. 183. What is your favorite band? Dave Matthews Band. 184. What's the best cheesy 80's song? Like A Virgin. 185. What's the best kind of movie to see on a date? Comedy. Everyone likes those. 186. Do you like to sit in the front, middle or back of the Movie Theater? Middle to back. 187. Have you ever been inside an abandoned building? Yep. =] 188. Under what circumstances would you agree to work for free? If food was provided. 189. Candles or strobe lights? Candles. 190. Do you think the Lord of the Rings movies are true to the books or did Hollywood change the story too much? I despise Lord of the Rings either way. 191. When you see a stranger on the street does your first reaction lean towards thinking of this person as a potential friend or as a potential threat? Friend, typically. 192. Is it natural for human beings to fear and distrust each other, or is it cultural? Natural, I think. 193. What do you really want to buy? A new phone. 194. You have to choose. Would you be happier marrying someone rich for their money or living in the streets and subway tunnels with someone you love? Love always comes before money. 195. If someone wanted to understand you what book could they read that would help? Right now? “It’s Kind of a Funny Story.” 196. Do you think it’s odd that Americans have freedom of religion and yet call themselves 'one nation under god'? No. It only is if God is capitalized. I guess it could represent other gods. 197. In what sense are you a minority? I don’t know. Can’t think of any. 198. Are you anti social? Some of the time. 199. Do you photograph well? No. 200. Do you think that human beings would survivor through a nuclear winter? Only the Russians. 201. Put these creatures in order from what you would least like to be reincarnated as (1), to what you would most like to be reincarnated as (10) assuming reincarnation ended up existing AND you were given a choice. caterpillar, house dog, wild dog, vulture, male human, female human, oak tree, rock, manta ray, dolphin 1. Rock. 2. House dog. 3. Manta Ray. 4. Oak tree. 5. Vulture. 6. Caterpillar. 7. Wild Dog. 8. Dolphin. 9. Female human. 10. Male human. 202. What do you feel unworthy of? Second chances. 203. Would you rather be remembered for having done something for humanity or being a really nice person? Doing something for humanity is more productive than being nice. 204. Which do you value more: science or intuition? Intuition 205. Your best friend and your significant other are in the hospital at the same time with the same ailment. Who do you visit first? Best friend. Sorry, lover. 206. Does the universe revolve around human beings? No. The universe revolves on all of God’s creations. 207. If you are no longer a virgin, do you wish you still were? I am a virgin still, thank God. 208. Who is your favorite poet of those who are alive right now? Shel Silverstein. 209. What is your favorite song from the 90's? Shit, I don’t know. 210. If you were in alphabet soup what letter would you be? X 211. Do you believe in fairies, ghosts, aliens, angels, dwarves, elves, etc.? Sure, why not? They have as much a right to exist as we do. 212. What makes you want to be someone’s friend? They don’t bullshit around. They can make me laugh in the first 10 minutes of talking to them. 213. Do you troll around the Internet harassing people anonymously for fun? Oooh. That sounds like fun, but I don’t. 214. Have you ever seen the movie A Man Who Fell to Earth? Nope. 215. What is your favorite line from a movie? “Does Barry Manilow know that you raid his wardrobe?” I couldn’t live without that line. 216. What's your favorite video game? Spyro. =P 217. Have you ever taken something that wasn't yours? Sure, from like…Marlene. 218. What is one phrase people say that irritates you? Anything involving the words “freshie” or “girlfriend.” 219. You allow strangers to read your diary, blog, and/or myspace, but would you let your parents read it? Hah. No. But I think they do… 220. Hot steamy bubble bath or quick in and out shower? Shower. Always. 221. Are you allergic to anything? Nope. 222. What is your favorite Terminator movie? None of the above, kay thanks. 223. What is your favorite fast food? Portillos. 224. What would someone have to do to get you to never speak to him or her again? It’s pretty rare. I don’t think I’ve ever gotten mad enough at someone enough to NEVER speak to them again. 225. Would (or have) you ever whip someone or be whipped by someone in bed? Totally. =P 226. Have you ever said 'I hate everyone' and really meant it literally? Not meant it… 227. Why do some people want to get more money than they could ever spend? Because they’re dumb, corrupt individuals. 228. Have you ever won a carnival fish? Yeah. They die really quickly. 229. Did it live more than a week? Hahha. No. 230. What's the best sounding accent a person can have? Australian. Yum. 231. What's the most boring thing you've ever read? I don’t read boring things. 232. Do you prefer buttons or touch screens? Touch screens. 233. Do you think there is a lot of similarity between the Harry Potter books and the Lord of the Rings series? NO. They’re completely different. One is amazing, and one sucks more than anything in the world! 234. Would you consider yourself to be naive? No. 235. Which of your friends is most likely to go to jail? Dave. Haha. 236. What is the smallest amount of money that could be in a public toilet that would make you reach in and grab it? Uh, nothing. EW. 237. Would you ever wear real fur? NO. 238. Arachnophobia or Eight Legged Freaks? Arachnophobia all the way. 239. What are your feelings about police officers? The ones in Addison are boneheads. 240. What is your favorite line from a song? I really don’t have one… 241. Is fifty dollars a lot of money? Not enough. 242. Do you like the band Front 242 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Front_242)? Never heard of them. 243. Would you rather have fame, money, or self-satisfaction? Self-satisfaction. 244. What's your middle name? Elise. 245. What is the absolute limit, the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars? …As little as I had to. Thank you, more Breakfast Club moments. =] 246. Are you good, evil or neutral? Evil. 247. Should ebonics (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ebonics) be considered a language? It is a way of speech, so sure. Why not? 248. What color is your bedroom? Dads- white. Moms – light & dark blue. What color would you like it to be? Mint green and purple. 249. When are you planning to move to a new home? Mom has been planning for a while. 250. If you added up the cost of everything in the room with you, approximately what would it come out to be? Not that much. Most of my Dad’s stuff isn’t that valuable. 251. Do you blow your nose in public? Ew. I hate doing that. I feel so awkward. 252. Do you want to follow in your parent's footsteps? NO. Absolutely not. 253. What is the coolest web site you know of? Uhm, myspace. Duh. 254. Which cartoon would you most like to see turned into a movie? None. Movies ruin cartoons. 255. Of the following, which word best describes you: enthusiastic, fair minded, generous, helpful = Helpful 256. Can you eat with chopsticks? Poorly. 257. Could you tell real money from counterfeit? That little line on it when you hold it up to the light, yeah? 258. What do you think about school uniforms? They make life soooo much easier. 259. What ancient civilization would you most like to visit? Greece. =] 260. What would make a great new Crayola color? Red Hot Asian. 261. If an art project is created with the intent of getting rich and famous, does that cast doubt over its significance as a work of art? Completely. 262. If you became president, whom would you invite to sing at your inauguration? Tony Bennett. 263. Who is the greatest philosopher of your country? We have great philosophers in America? 264. If all the nations in the world are in debt, where did all the money go? Look underwater. 265. Is it as easy to make you happy now as it was when you were a child? Surprisingly, yes. 266. Who knows more...you, or your parents? Me. Of course. 267. What instrument would you like to be famous for playing? Cello. 268. Children fill its lungs completely with air. Adults breathe in a more shallow way, not filling their lungs completely. Why the change? Adults aren’t calm enough to breath normally. 269. Would you have sex with a stranger for one million dollars? Is the stranger attractive? 270. Are you completely in control of your body? No. Hah. Are you completely in control of your mind? No way. Hahah. 271. Which is more romantic: an expensive, glittering bouquet OR flowers that were hand picked as they grew beside the parkway? Hand picked, of course. 272. Do you know yourself well enough to understand why you feel the way you do? For the most part, yes. 273. Which do you do more often: let movies, songs and books put your feelings into words for you or put your feelings into words by yourself? Quotes help me explain myself. 274. Do you believe celebrities when they are endorsing a product? Never. 275. What kind of movies do you wish were made more often? Truly Stephen King kind of scary movies. 276. Does fashion matter to you? To an extent. 277. Should politicians be held to the same legal standards as everyone else? Of course. Where do they get off with anything less? 278. What do you get in trouble for the most? Grades. 279. Should parents spank their kids? Yes! 280. What is your worst daily habit? Cracking my knuckles. 281. If you had your choice which one TV show would you have canceled? Lost. 282. Do you like the taste of sweet or salt? Salt. 283. Are you very precise about what words you use to describe your feelings and thoughts? No. It’s a series of “I don’t know” and “blehs” and “eeeeh!s” 284. What do you feel the most guilty about? Everything I do hurts someone… 285. Do you meditate? No. 286. Can dreams be visions, or do you feel they are always random images? Visions, sure. 287. Do you try to write/say what you are feeling in a true and simple way? I try to. 288. The thief _______ that everyone steals. What verb would you fill in the blank with? “explained” 289. What's the most incredible experience you ever had? My last birthday. Thank you, JJ. <3 290. Are you ever afraid to write/say/think how you feel? Some of the time, but rarely. 291. Do you write/say/think it anyway or become intimidated and try to avoid it? Say it anyway. Who cares about my opinion anyway? 292. What is one thing you can't do? Raise one eyebrow. 293. Do you like movies starring Charleton Heston (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charleton_ 294. Are you gentle? Normally. 295. When do you feel the most raw and vulnerable? When I’m explaining how I feel. 296. Are you trying to find yourself? Everyone is. 297. Where are you looking? Anywhere that shows promise. 298. Are you sometimes afraid of being honest because you are afraid of hurting people's feelings? Never. People should be confident enough in themselves to ignore my comments. 299. What would make you a stronger person? Confidence. 300. What book would you like to read sometime soon? The Scarlett Letter, again. 301. List 5 things you have not experienced that you would like to experience before you die. A Dance in a famous company. B Meet Mikhail Baryshnikov. C Go on a cooking show. D Graduate college. E Have 5 kids. 302. Will you try to accomplish any of these things within the next year? Well, I’ll make my way closer to them. 303. What do you feel controlled by? The ‘system’. Whatever the hell that is. 304. If Jesus appeared to you and told you that the moon was made of green cheese would you believe him? Probably. Jesus doesn’t lie. 305. What is one thing you are sure of? The world goes on past my petty little problems. 306. At what part of the day do you feel the most alert? Between 10 pm and 1 am. 307. Have you ever played in a band? Nope. 308. Have you ever stared into the ocean thinking 'early creatures crawled outta that'? …Uhm, no. 309. If not, what do you think of when you are staring into the ocean? Eternity. 310. Do you like the mental challenge of chess or other games? Sure. 311. Do you ever think of where your atoms were before they were in you? They were in someone else. Not that difficult. 312. Do you ever think about where your atoms will go after they have been in you? To some cooler person. 313. If you didn't know that people couldn't fly do you think that you could? Probably not. I would try though. 314. Are you someone that others call when they're having a problem and want to talk about it? I like to think so. 315. When it comes to literature, do you see beyond the writing and into the meaning intended by the author? Typically, yes. 316. Is there anything you can take apart completely, and then put back together, and have no left over parts? Hahaha. Noooo. 317. What are your feelings about the death penalty? Against. 318. If there was a god and you could ask him/her one question what would it be? “What is the purpose you have intended for me in this lifetime?” 319. Do you believe that life will be found on other planets? Sure. Especially on Pluto. What a slap in the face that would be, to find life on Pluto now that it’s not a planet. 320. What is something worth suffering for? Success. 321. If you could put an extra eye on your body anywhere you wanted, where would you put it? Back of my head. I’d make a great mother. 322. Are you in touch with the earth and nature? Not enough. 323. Would you rather live simply or extravagently? Simply. 324. Have you ever been camping? Not really.. =/ 325. Is your heart open when you meet someone new? No. 326. Are you able to have conversations with and become friends with people who are not like you and are interested in different things than you are? Sure. You always have at least ONE thing in common. 327. Are strangers more beautiful or frightening to you? Beautiful. 328. What stops you from doing everything you want to do? Questioning if I’m good enough. 329. Can you think of three adjective that do not apply to you at all? Closed-minded, bold, normal. 330. How do you feel about Jeremy Jaynes, who got a nine year prison sentence for spamming people with junk email (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeremy_Jayn 331. Do you know who the current premier of China is? I have NO clue. 332. Are you very active? Physically? Sure. 333. Is there a city that reminds you of the landscape of your brain? L.A. Up, down, and shiny. 334. Have you ever loved someone who has loved you back? No, to be quite honest. 335. Is it really being 'in love with' someone if the other person doesn't love you? I think so. I think it’s significantly worse if they don’t love you back. 336. Do you believe that there is someone perfect for everyone or that people just fall in love with who ever they are with at the time? There are people picked out for everyone. 337. Do you know secret things? Not really. 338. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't have? YES. 339. How do you overcome your fears? I don’t. I have a tendency to run away from them. 340. What can you do better than anyone you know? Nothing. 341. Would you benefit from a wilder existence? I doubt it. 342. Does it seem to you like the range of socially acceptable behavior is getting smaller or larger? Smaller. 343. Have you ever fired a gun? Yes. 344. Are people becoming more afraid of each other? Of course. Good reason to be too, with all the racism promoting fear of other people. 345. If you had to choose the percentage of freedom vs. safety what ratio would you decide on (ex: 100% free 0% safe)? 75 free, 25 safe. 346. Does safety stifle you? Doesn’t it stifle everyone? 347. Who or what needs to be stopped? Close minded individuals. 348. Are human beings becoming more domesticated? Less, certainly. 349. Do you follow the lives of the British Royal Family? Nah. 350. How did the death of Pope John Paul II (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pope_John_ 351. Have you ever lost something and never found it? Various pieces of clothing. 352. Do you listen to any talk radio shows? Not really. Drex sometimes. 353. Who do you trust more, your friends or your parents? My friends. 354. Would you ever date someone outside of your race or religion? Sure. Why not? 355. Which of the 7 deadly sins in the worst (gluttony, greed, pride, lust, envy, wrath, sloth)? Wrath. 356. Which one are you most guilty of? Lust. 357. Are you afraid to be alone with yourself? Oh, that’s dangerous. Do you try to avoid thinking? Sometimes. 358. Would you venture to tell someone you loved him or her if they didn't say it first? I’m always afraid that it’s going to ruin everything. 359. What are you the most sensitive about? My lack of success. 360. What can you talk about for hours? Dance. 361. Do you talk about yourself, other people, or ideas the most? Ideas. 362. Do you believe that spell casting can work? Sure. Who says it can’t? 363. Are you a fan of The Legend of Zelda games? Hahaha. I fail miserably at video games, but Zelda games are fabulous. 364. What old movie would you go see if it were re-released in the movie theaters? Rocky Horror. 365. Is there a celebrity that you would be too starstruck to talk to if you met them? I don’t think I would ever get starstruck. 366. Have you ever left a mean anonymous comment or unsigned note? Don’t think so. 367. What kind of myspace buletins annoy you the most? “Repost, or a man will come in your sleep and kill you.” Stfu, idiots. Get a clue. 368. What are three things that you try not to think about? 1. Love. 2. Bad friendships. 3. The possibility of failure. 369. Is casual sex acceptable for you? No. 370. What form of sexual protection do you use? Haven’t had the chance to use any. 371. What is expected of you that you feel is unnatural or not right? That just because I’m smart, I should be the top of my class. 372. Do you sometimes place your own expectations on other people? It’s a bad habit. I’m hypercritical. 373. Do you sometimes act overeager to make friends when you are around strangers? I don’t think so. Maybe though. 374. Do you take everything that is said literally? No. 375. Do you take most things others say seriously? Nah. 376. Do you have a quick wit? Some days. 377. Do you believe in the need for political correctness? What?! No way. 378. Do you have strong opinions and beliefs? Yes. 379. If yes, can you still hang out with and be friends with people who disagree with you? Sure. Good debate partners. 380. Are you uptight? I can be. 381. Do you sometimes do risky things? Rarely. 382. Could just about anyone hold your interest in a conversation for at least ten minutes? No. Depends on if they’re actually interesting. 383. Are you self-conscious? Too. 384. What would be your ideal destination for a Saturday afternoon? Downtown, to the harbor. =] 385. Does anyone have a video tape of you doing soemthing embaressing? Magen has a video of me dancing in the bathroom and then falling into the bathtub. 386. What is Kevin Smith’s(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kev 387. Where do you like to go on Friday or Saturday nights? Dance class. I’m lame. 388. Do you like your friends to act the same way all the time or do you accept their moods and changes? Moods and changes are completely understandable. 389. Do you often feel like other people are judging you? No. 390. What do you think other people judge you to be like? I really don’t care what they think I am. They can think what they want. 391. Are you quick to judge others? I try hard not to. 392. When you have a fight with someone do you want to talk about it right away or calm down first and then talk? Calm down and then talk. 393. Some say love is a river (according to the old song). What do you say love is? Bliss. 394. What is the worst fault a person can have? Lack of manners. 395. Do you have it? No, but I have a lot more faults. 396. Which do you think has more impact on a person’s character, genetics or environment? Environment. 397. Who was your first best friend? Either Cole Keutzer or Nicole Middleton. 398. If you are not best friends anymore, what came between you? I’m still friends with them, I just don’t live by them anymore. 399. Who have you read a biography about? The last biography I read was for Fred Astaire. 400. What would your own autobiography be called? Confusion in Motion: Clair Belmonte’s movement through life and it’s lessons. 401. Some say that high school is the best time of your life. Was that true for you? I’m only on my second year. 402. What do you find yourself encouraging others to try? I don’t know. 403. Which is better: Mel Brooks or Woody Allen? Woody Allen. 404. When was the last time you were up all night? 3 nights ago, I think. 405. __ is life. The rest is just details. Fill in the blank. …Happiness! 406. Are people too complex and different to be categorized? Yes. I could never categorize myself. 407. Is it good to have pride in your own race or does that separate people from each other because it makes them think of everyone else as 'outsiders'? Pride is good, but not excessive pride. 408. What fictional story would you like to live through? “How To Kill A Rockstar.” 409. Are cats or dogs smarter? Cats. 410. Have you ever guessed someone's password and broken into their email/diary/blog/myspace? No, but someone has done it to me. 411. What teacher, if any, has effected you the most in your life? Ms. Mezyk. 412. Are you more easily bored or excited? Excited. 413. What's the bravest or most daring thing you have ever done? I’m not brave enough. 414. "What's the point of robbery when nothing is worth taking?" (- Adam Ant) There is none, of course. 415. If your man or woman served you breakfast in bed as a treat what would you want to eat? Them. =P Hahaha, no. Uhm… cinnamon raisin toast, 2 sunnyside up eggs, and coffee. 416. What do you do only when you are upset? Ignore people. 417. What's the oddest CD in your collection? Michelle Branch. So doesn’t fit. Never opened, either. 418. What's the best screen name you ever saw? PB and CRACKwich. Totally. Zack, you’re amazing. 419. What would your friends be surprised to learn about you? I’d rather stay in on a Saturday night than go out and party. 420. Who owes you an apology? A handful of people I’m not mentioning here. They know. 421. Who deserves an apology from you? Not enough people deserve them. 422. How would you like to treat your kids differently from the way your parents treated you? Uhhh, I would actually be responsible and take care of my kids, not force all the responsibility on the eldest. 423. Which do you like best: 60's, 70's or 80's fashion? 80’s. =] It was fabulous and random and colorful. 424. What is the worst pick up line ever used on you? Used on me? I’m lucky enough that I don’t get them used to me. The worst one I’ve heard though? ‘Did you fart, because you just blew me away.’ 425. Of the following, which word best describes you: inventive, kinetic (energetic), light-hearted, mature = Mature. 426. Do you own a record player? You know it. Do you use it? Every once in a while. My Dad’s got some great old records. 427. How easily do you make friends? Relatively easily. I just don’t really keep them. 428. What is the difference between having character and being a character? Having character pertains to real personality. Being a character means you have so much personality that you almost seem fake or unreal. 429. Are there any animals you flat out refuse to touch? Nah, why would I? 430. Do you care about your weight? Maybe a little bit too much. =/ 431. Did you/will you go to the prom? I’m not sure yet. I might not. I’m really not into that sort of thing most of the time. 432. Have you ever wanted to date twins? Fred and George, because I’m all Harry Potter-tastic like that. That would be amazing. 433. What one thing would you change about high school if you could? Make it go faster. Hahah. 434. If you came with a warning label, what would it say? Warning: Extremely dangerous to men. Can be bitchy and can crush all dreams with a single sentence. A little too straightforward. Doesn’t care about what other people think. 435. Are you artistic and creative? Not specifically. 436. What were you (probably) doing on this date last year? The summer reading that was due the first day of school. Reading Jane Eyre. 437. What are you obsessed with? Coffee. That’s probably my worst obsession. 438. What was the last compliment you received? Tom told me that I was the sweetest and most beautiful girl ever. 439. Do you have any brothers or sisters? One younger brother. Brian. 440. Who would you like to be alone with right now? Brandon. Though, not even alone with him, specifically. I would just love to be with him. 441. Do you push people away when you really want them to come closer? I tend to push people away either way. 442. Is a prenuptial agreement necessary or does it take the romance and trust out of marriage? Completely removes all trust. Only people with something to lose need prenups. I’d be willing to give everything to the man I married. Therefore, what do I have to lose? 443. Do you lie your way out of things? No. I’m a terrible liar. I might’ve lied to my parents to get out of some extra trouble, but never enough to walk away without battle wounds. 444. Are you better at talking or listening? Listening, I think. Most of the time. |
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So I haven't written in a long while, and I really need to get back into it. I wish I could go over everything that has happened since I last wrote, but that would take A LOT of effort, considering that was back in June. Back when it got people mad at me when I spoke my mind. But that's okay, shit happens, right? First of all, I'll talk about today before I discuss what has happened in the past and what you all have missed, non-existant readers of my livejournal. Anyway, I layed around the beach for about 5 hours. Got a damn nice tan too. It would've been nice if I had been smart enough to turn over and tan my back. However, some of us just arn't that naturally intelligent. Haha. For the most part, I just spent time with my Dad and Brian. You know how good it feels to have good family? I realize too often that I take them for granted. Anyway- then I came home and kept my little cousin busy. Yesterday, Dave, Majed, Albert and I all went to Woodfield and Elijahs. [this AMAZING little coffee shop across the street from the bank.] By the way, I've spend the last week and a half at my dad's. Coming home the 20th, I think. Along with that, ballet has been going well. Everything just seems to be ideal currently, doesn't it? My brother has to go to bed. =/ Goodnightttttt. |
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I miss him. A LOT. Like, it's really starting to hurt. I want to talk to him, but I really can't. He's busy having fun. Although, I had a good day today. She's such a doll. PLUS, Alex is selling her Speech book to me. My pants are too big for me. Anyway, I'm off to bed.
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Father's day was good. I gave him his present, we watched Corky Romano, Went to Woodfield and went shopping, And out to an early dinner. Anyway. I'm bored. More surveys. How old will you be in 10 months? Do you think you'll be married by then? Who was the last person to call you? Who was the last person you called? Do you prefer to call or text? Do you have any pets? What were you doing at 12am last night? What medicines do you take every day? How many states have you lived in? Do you prefer shoes, socks or bare feet? Are you a social person? Are you happy? Do you have a temper? What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? Do you like coffee? What do you drink in the morning? Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? What side of the bed do you usally sleep on? Do you like to cuddle? Have you ever been to Canada? Have you ever flown? Do you prefer the ocean or a pool? Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats? What is your favorite thing to spend money on? Can you roll your tongue? Who is the funniest person you know? Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or closed? Have you ever had physical therapy? Do you have a gym membership? Strange Questions... Be ready to laugh- 1. What is your best friend's Dad's name? 2. What body part do you hate? 4. Have you ever made out in a basement? 5. What body part do you wash first in the shower? 6. Do you have any piercings? 7. Do you have any tattoos? 9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles? 10. Have you ever been tied up? 11. What was the worst thing you ever got grounded for? 12. Have you ever had two dates in one night? 13. How many times have you been cursed at? 14. Which shoe do you put on first? 15. How old are you? 16. Have you ever been to a gay bar? 17. Have you ever had any Friends with Benefits? 19. Did you French kiss before you were 16? 20. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting? 23. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets or your towel ever again, which would you choose? 24. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable? 26. When is the last time you played the air guitar? 28. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving? 30. How do you normally eat your Oreo cookies? 31. Name something you do when your same sex friends aren't around? 32. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk? 33. Why are you doing this survey? 34. What was the best year of your life? 35. Any strange phobias? 36. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? 37. whens the last time you threw up? 38. Have you ever called your love interest by another girl/guys name? 40. Have you ever played naked Twister? 42. How many Kali's do you know? I have been: a child a daughter a sister a friend a dancer a soloist a thief a liar a confidant a bitch an Angel Hurt without cause a smoker a nurse a wife a daydreamer a cleaning lady a chauffer a traveler a writer a poet a reader unfairly accused jealous a customer service representative depressed melodramatic spiritual sexy cute as a button & ugly as sin bald a dominatrix submissive vanilla silly naive bankrupt loyal neglected to every state except alaska an aunt mistaken for a man a photographer a slob in therapy scared of the dark intimidating and intimidated maniacal despondent patriotic to disneyworld inside a sex club weepy melancholy understanding, misunderstanding, understood & misunderstood to the edge of my sanity cried without comfort offered comfort to both friends & strangers had evil thoughts had more lovers than I'd like danced too hard drank too much laughed too loud said stupid shit gossiped committed adultery left the scene of an accident depended on the kindness of strangers been to the abortion clinic [not for myself.] had more than one lover in my bed at the same time talked behind the back of a friend been talked about by a friend smoked marijuana taken speed or acid cheated on tests danced in the rain watched a meteor shower from a waterbed in the middle of a field cared for orphaned animals danced in the moonlight cared for the dying gotten hopelessly lost in chicago stood on the edge of a cliff made prank phone calls played practical jokes suffered from road rage shared secrets to my daughter made friends with people I've never seen had a crush on a girl watched XXX rated movies searched for internet porn smoked in the boys room Gained and lost 50 lbs at least 3 times had an unrequited love written letters I never intended to send sent letters I wish I'd never written hated loved been loved seen a UFO acted like an idiot fallen off a horse been strong flirted with strangers ridden a mini bike got lost in the woods thought bigfoot was following me had phone sex read cheesy love stories broken someone's heart had my heart broken |
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The lighting down in the basement makes my tan look really dark. We'll see how this summer works out. I won't actually have time to live. |
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Random iPodness! our Early Years Not A Little Kid Anymore You're All Grown Up Now If Your Life Was A Science-Fiction/Fantasy Movie Emotions Coming To An End |
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Mom wouldn't let me go to dance because I was being irrespectful to her friend last night. I didn't even say anything! I just left them alone! Apparently, that was the wrong thing to do. She's such an idiot. I can't stand her. My mom, not her friend. Tori's nice. How did my mother get nice friends when she's such a bitch? Sounds like me, right? Hah. So, today- Then we went back to the house, layed around and watched Degrassi. I guess, to a point, I kind of miss drinking. We got in another argument earlier today, Anyway, we went walking. I will live. I have before.
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I'm not sure everything in my head is straight enough to write yet, so I'll do a survey and an entry after. Say the first ones that come to mind. 10 Animals 9 Songs 8 Movies 7 Cities 6 Websites 5 Junk Foods 4 Stores 3 Flowers 2 Best Friends 1 Color 1 Addiction 2 Public Places 3 Bands 4 TV Shows 5 Youtube Videos 6 Things You're Wearing 7 Things In Your Purse 8 Cartoon Characters 9 Magazines 10 Celebrities L A B E L S Underline those that apply to you. -=-Outcast-=- -=-Party Girl/Boy-=- -=-Scene Kid-=- -=--=-Prep-=--=- -=--=-Band Geek-=--=- -=-Thespian-=- -=-Overachiever-=- -=-Slacker-=- -=-Goth-=- -=-Nerd-=- -=-Garage Band Junkie-=- -=-Gangstaaa-=- -=-Emo-=- -Skatepunk-=- Yeah, uh... I'm pretty much a partying thesbian who slacks off. =P Besides the slacking off, that's so "wtf?" |
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So, talking to him for the first time since the fight... I was kind of a bitch, actually. Oops. Oh well. I'm not happy enough to be nice. Even Mom noticed something was wrong with me. But I didn't talk to her. Anyway- Congrats on graduating yesterday, Tom. |
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When we claim that it’s love that we have for someone, are we correct? |
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I'm better now, sort of. It's not my problem, It has nothing to do with me. I'm just not going to care. I'm done. I guess, in the end, It's her or me. And I've got to expect that he'll always choose her. Therefore, my attitude and how I act around him has to change. We'll see how that goes. I just tried to talk to her, And lately I just have nothing to say. It's awkward and weird. And I'm sure she's aware at how unhappy I am with them together, But I tried to be nice. And that's all that matters, right? At least I wasn't being a bitch or anything. I just want to be sweet. So I complained to Marz and Majed last night. And that helped a bit. Majed was kind of busy, so I felt bad interrupting just to complain. But oops. Oh well. I did. Today, I'm past it. And if he doesn't talk to me. Oh well. I'll live. I didn't mess up. Went to my brother's school picnic today. Blah. =[ Really didn't want to be there. I find that shit so boring. Hopefully hanging out with Marz later? Yay. <3 |
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Iced Caramel Macchiato made me feel a bit better. Dressing up and looking cute made me feel better. Cicada in hair? Not so much. Quite honestly, a drink would make everything feel good about now. A shot of something strong with good friends. Perfect. I remember when I used to yell at her for drinking after the breakup. I guess, in a sense, I kind of know how she feels- A drink would wisp everything away. I wish I still drank on days like these. If I had something right now, It'd be gone. I'd be wasted. I'd be forgetting that I ever cared. Alcohol took the pain away when I needed it most before, during the divorce. I'm sure it would be more than willing to help me now. After all, isn't it most useful when you're feeling betrayed and heartbroken? I've held myself back until now. I've been logical. I've been smart. But I'm feeling pretty stupid for believing that I mattered- So why not add stupid decisions to ice the cake, right? I apologized. I'm not sure why, but I did. My overreaction was NOT out of line. Actually, I'm slightly surprised that he didn't completely expect that to come. OF COURSE I would be upset. Who wouldn't be? As surprising as it may seem, I'm not void of emotion. I certainly wasn't this morning. Just because I don't cry doesn't mean I can't. And it's funny how it always seems to be the same person that causes it. I want to be in Addison. I want to be with Marz. Or I want to talk to Majed. He'll understand. He'll offer some sympathy. But he's not home, and I'm not about to call and ruin his day when he's out having a good time. I wish the people next door would just shut up. ... and my youth is the MAIN problem. Oh, that's good. One of many, and it's one I can't control. Thanks. Then, here you go- That problem's about 3 years away from being completely solved. The question really is- Am I worth waiting for? Will he be there when it IS possible? Or will he be happy and in love with her? Should I give up, or is there hope someday? He could never give me a real answer to that. You can't promise something that's years away. I just want to know that he'll be there, And, somehow, I feel that once he finds someone better, he won't. I'll poof out of his mind like a bad magic trick and not come back until a 3 second thought years later. My faith seems to be faltering. But it's not gone. I doubt it's really anywhere near. My hope is still fully intact. I don't know why it won't die. Wouldn't that be easier on you, my poor, beat up heart? Watch. It's sickening. I'll see him a week from now. He'll hug me, and not a doubt will exist concerning my love for him. My belief that I'm good enough will be right back where it was, Even if I'm not good enough. I'll still think so. I'll make excuses for why it won't work and why it will in the end. When, there's really only one conclusion- I'm not the one he wants to be with. One of these days, I'll wise up and agknowledge that. Until then, I'll just continue to make a fool of myself for loving someone who can't love me back. It's hard to be mad at him. I start missing him after a while. I want to mean everything to him... Hug him and kiss him and have him tell me everything is alright. If he cares so goddamn much, shouldn't he be here when I cry? Why doesn't he give a shit when I'm at my worst? I want something better than this. Something better than what my life is becoming. I'm dependant and needy-- when did that happen? When was my weakness more evident? It's all since I met him. All I wanted was to matter. To be that person in someone's life, opposed to the typical "You're just a friend," feeling. I'm meant to be just a friend. I get crushes on the wrong people, And seriously fall for the ones that couldn't care less. Then again, I don't think I've ever fallen this hard. No one said a first love was supposed to hurt this bad. No one told me it tears you apart. I'm just sick of always being second best. I'll always be his when he's not with her. =/ If he ever tries to kiss me again- I'll slap him. No doubt in my mind. I don't want to be kissed by someone who would rather be kissing someone else. Gosh, things can be so difficult sometimes. I guess any confusion I had about his feelings has cleared up now, hasn't it? Anyway, I have Magen back. I've missed her. My sister. <3 She makes me forget pain and come back to my senses a bit. Nothing but babysitting tonight. I think I might cry a bit more though. It felt good to actually get my emotion out, for once, Instead of balling it in and acting like everything is perfect. <3
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I feel really cold. I just got the worst chills in 70 degree weather. Obviously, that's not good. |
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Didn't write yesterday because I was at Marlene's all day after finals. We intended to get some sun, but that didn't happen. Damn wind. So, instead, we sat inside and waited for Ria. This included doing surveys and listening to Addante ramble about nothing. Then she came, and the three of us [Addante went home for dinner and to the store.] went to Walmart, followed by Office Depot, Best Buy, AND Sams Club in search of the perfect mp3 player for John's birthday today. By the way, happy birthday John. Got to see Lala, which was cool since I don't see her that often anymore, but some weird shit is going on there that I'd rather not talk about. Heh. Anyway, then we went back to the house and took a short walk with Addante and brought his groceries in. And we kind of sat around until sunset, basically. Except we played Guitar Hero. Which, I promise, I will never attempt again. I have the worst hand/eye coordination known to man. Then home- nothing else. |
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So, ughhhh, these past few days have been a little crazy, haven't they? Finals are driving me crazy, And some other weird stuff has been happening too. I kind of just want it all to end. One more day. Thank God. Marz & John & Alex? Majed & Jimmy & IHOP? As for him- Not like he has any reason to be jealous anyway. I don't know. Maybe I have this whole thing wrong. Anyway, The cicadas are really loud. And I love Emmy. I'm kinda worried about her. Hopefully, everything is alright. <3 Why is Kimi Arquines always grabbing her chest? You know what was rad? Hanging out with Paul Friday? Tuesday is reserved for Ria [and possibly Marlene?] It's pretty gorgeous. Anyway, yeah. I'm done. <3
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Taken from Marlene. <3 1 When was the last time you cried? I don't remember, to be quite honest. 2 Have you ever faked sick? Uh huh. 3 What was the last lie you said? I said I would go somewhere tomorrow night. I actually have no desire to go, so I probably won't. 4 Have you ever cried during a movie? I can't remember a time when I did.... yes I can. Seeing "What a Girl Wants." I'm lame. 5 Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of? Him. <3 6 Have you ever danced in the rain? All the time. 7 Have you ever been drunk? Chyep. 8 Have you ever tried tried drugs? Nuh uh. 9 Do you smoke? Not a chance. 10 What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare? I block out memories from truth or dare. 11 What is your full name? Clair Elise Belmonte. 12 What is your blood-type? AB positive? 13 Have you ever been in a car accident? Nuh uh. 14 How old were you when you recieved your first kiss? 3. Parents have a picture of it too. First one that happened on purpose, I was 7. 15 Who was your first kiss? Cole. Haha. 16 Have you ever had an online relationship? Hahaah. Yes. Pathetic? Just a bit. 17 Have you ever had phone-sex? -gasp- Why, I'm a virgin. 18 Have you ever been rejected by a crush? Hah. When you get to my point, it's constant rejection. 19 What is your favourite sport to play? Football. 20 Have you ever made a prank phone call? Duh. 21 Have you ever said -- No, more than likely, I haven't. Whatever I'm saying. 22 What's your favourite childhood memory? IEeesh. Just making it though? 23 Is there anything that you have done that you regret? Nope. 24 What do you want to be when you grow up? Ballerina 25 What is your political persuassion? Let's go Democrat. =] 26 Have you ever had cybersex? Hahaha. Yeahhhh. =P Wow, I have to be the lamest person in the world. 27 Do you believe in g-d? I believe in God. We're homies. 28 Do you believe in love at first sight? Kinda sorta. Not love persay, just a certain level of trust and awareness of the other person that is necessary to fall in love. 29 Do you believe in karma? Nah. 30 Who was your first crush? James Estrada? 31 Who do you have a crush on? Hah. Things elevated way past a crush a long time ago. 32 How would you describe yourself? Silly. Shy. Down-to-earth. Random. Comforting. 33 What are you afraid of? Main fears - Rejection, Tornados/other natural disasters, Clowns, and Unicorns. 35 What does your screen name mean? OLD insider/nickname with Jorge. 36 What person do you trust the most? Marz. Dave. 37 Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Arlens. 38 What is the best compliment you have ever recieved? I'm not quite sure. 39 What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you? I've been called some pretty bad things. I don't let it affect me. 40 What is the longest crush/relationship you have had? Relationship? 7 months. Crush? Gianni Levato. That was on and off for three years. 41 What is your greatest strength? Eh...? 42 What is your greatest weakness? Warm breathe on my ear, or nibbling on it. Neck too. And when I'm close to a boy, and they go slightly under my shirt to the small area of your stomach right above where your jeans start? Tickle me there, I'll literally shiver. 43 What is your perfect pizza? Veggie. =D 44 What is your first thought when waking up in the morning? Ughhhhhhhhhhh. 45 What is your first thought before you go to bed? Him. 46 What college do you want to go to? Boston Conservatory. For sure. 47 Do you get along with your family? Not with my mom. Daddy and I are really close. 48 Do you play any instruments? Not a chance. 49 What kind of music do you like? Anything. ANYTHING. 50 Do you think you're attractive? HAH. 51 Would you ever get a tattoo? Probably not. 52 How many piercings do you have? One in each ear? Nothing too exciting. 53 Who makes you laugh? Marz and her bad jokes. Dave and his sarcasm/stupidity. 54 Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? Someone cute that I didn't know. 55 Have you ever seen a dead body? I'd rather not. 56 Do you have a celebrity crush? Zack Braff. <33 57 What is one thing scientists should invent? They should spend less money on pointless shit and more on finding cures for cancer. 58 Have you ever broken a bone? It happens pretty often. 59 What happens after you die? You dance and be merry. You get all the answers to unanswered questions. You have fireside chats with God and watch over the people who mean the most to you. 60 Do you watch or read the news? I'd rather read it than watch it, but I do both. 61 What stereotype would you label yourself as being? Fuck-up. 62 Would your friends agree with that stereotypic label? For sure. 63 If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Zelda. =D 64 If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go? Last year. Nothing was worse than that. 65 If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change? Hahah. I'd be a totally different person. 66 Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Chyep. 67 Have you ever played strip poker? AHAHAHA. Good memories with good friends. =] 68 Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves? Very unlikely. 69 What do you want your friends to think about you? That I'm trustworthy. That they could talk to me about anything. 70 Whats the biggest argument you've ever gotten into? Currently still going. 71 HAve you ever bitten someone? I bit Marz's finger today. 72 When's your birthday? September 1st. 73 Have you ever stolen anything? Not to my memory. 74 Do you make wishes on shooting stars? No. 75 Whats the most you've ever eaten in one sitting? I can't eat a lot. 76 If you could go back and change one day, what would it be? The day I met him. 77 Do you remember your dreams? I try. 78 Have you ever been in love? It's not as good as they say. 79 Are you a morning person or a night person? Way night. 80 Do you have any phobias? Mmhmmm. But they don't control my life. 81 What's the meanest thing you've ever done to someone? I do a lot of mean things on a daily basis. 82 Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth)? Uh huh. 83 How many screen names do you have? 2. They're linked. 84 Do any medical problems run in your family? Many. 85 Has anyone ever been disowned from your family? My Mom. 86 Have you ever had a nightmare? Of course. 87 Do you say meaner things to your friends or your enemies? Friends. Definitely. 88 Would you ever participate in a threesome? Maybe? 89 Would you ever pay for a prostitute? Nahhh. I know too many horny people to actually pay. 90 Have you ever mooned or flashed someone? Yeah. 91 Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf? Oops. 92 Have you ever laughed so hard you peed in your pants? Ahaha. Probably, but I can't remember a time. 93 Have you ever written a love letter? Yep. Never gave it to him. 94 Have you ever attempted suicide? I'm not suicidal. 95 Do you prefer boxers or briefs? Boxers, please. 96 Have you ever been in a fistfight? Eeesh. Yeah. 97 Do you have any hidden talents? They're so hidden, even I don't know about them. 98 What is one thing you want me to know about you? Biology pisses me off. 99 What is one question you wouldn't want me to ask? "Why don't you have a boyfriend?!" I hate that question. 100 Do you usually prefer books or movies? Books. Everytime. 101 Who is your favourite person to talk to? Him and her. =] 102 Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad? Marlene. Always. 103 Would you ever have sex before marriage? I don't want to, but I probably will. 104 Who do you talk to most on the phone? Marz and Dave. 105 Do you have a secret that you're ashamed of? I'm ashamed of my attitude in 7th and 8th grade. I don't know what happened to me. 106 Do you prefer british or american spelling of words? American, please. That's where we live. 107 Have you ever gotten detention? Hey! I was there today! 108 How do you vent your anger? I don't. I keep it inside. Or I pray. 109 Have you ever been on a diet? Yes. 110 Would you ever date someone younger than you? Honestly, I doubt it. Older than you? Mmhm. 111 Is your best friend a virgin? Yes 112 What's a rumor someone has spread about you? I don't remember. 113 What's the kinkiest thing you could ever actually see yourself as doing? Ahahah. What WON'T I be doing? =P 114 What's the meanest thing anyone has ever done to you? She put me in that awkward position. 115 What's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you? Was there to be a shoulder to cry on at 2 in the morning when he didn't even know me. 116 Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental illness? Not yet. 117 Have you ever cut yourself on purpose? Eeesh. 118 Have you ever wanted to murder someone? Not really.. 119 Have you ever hated someone? I'm not good at hating. 120 Do you prefer talking on the phone or online? Online, most of the time. 121 Do you consider yourself popular? Nah. 122 Would you ever tell the person you have a crush on that you like them? It always turns out bad. 123 Have you ever had a crush on an enemy? I don't have enemies. 124 Have you ever had a crush on a best friend? Yes. =/ 125 What is your favourite book? god shaped hole, how to kill a rockstar, and HP series [hell, I don't even have to alter her answer.] 126 Do you have a collection of anything? Teddy bears. 127 Are you happy with the person you are becoming? Kinda, yeah. 128 Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago? Life was a lot easier than. 129 What do you see yourself as being in 5 years from now? Dancing through life. 130 Are you happy with the life you have? For the most part, yeah. =] |
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I'm so bad with getting on here. My gosh. I'm horrible. Anywayyyy. Marlene is over. =] Yayyyy. Today's an okay day. Drove home from Indiana today. Went to see Sara and the rest of the Deutches over the weekend. That was pretty cool. Nothing horribly exciting, considering I was sick and felt like crap. But Sara and I always have fun. Old best friends stay best friends. <3 That caught me up on Randi Nicole's life too. Who got married and moved to London in the past year. Wowwwww, we thought she was going to marry the crazy tattoo artist. Funny how things change, you know? I missed her a lot too. Sissy will always be important. I'm excited to get her reply via myspace and see whats been going on with her lately. So today I drove home and slept the entire way. Then I watched Brian for a while as Mom went out for a walk and then Marlene came over. And she just left a little while ago. And I miss her already, but she has to finish her homework. "My owner is the shit!" Ahahahaha. So- I've been talking and hanging out with Majed a lot lately. And it's pretty rad, yo. =] That kid has offically been added to the list of people that make my life. Hahaha. But... I don't know how it happened, really. We're just getting close. He's "comfortable" with me, which is something he doesn't feel with everyone, apparently. I feel pretty awesome with him. Yayyyy! Speaking of, planning to hang out with him tonight. Should be fun. 4 more days until school is out. As for my him- Alright. Shower then Majed.
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Getting on the computer is difficult lately, considering I have absolutely no time... So I'm sorry for anyone who depends on this to know how I'm doing. I'm just not reliable. I should be getting in the shower right now, but I'm going to take the time to write about everything that's been going on. Definately lots. List? Let's do it. -Got back in touch with Kristin Campbell. Weird one, eh? I think so too. But yeah, she came over on mother's day and we just spent the whole day catching up on what we've missed in each other's lives in the past three years. It's amazing how you can miss someone so much when you never thought you wanted to see them again. On that noteeeee... |
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